A New Low

Song of the moment: Some stupid Rap Song from MTV2

I can't find the remote to my TV and I'm too lazy to get up off my ass and change the channel, so I'm stuck listening to the rap countdown on MTV2. wtf.

Also, my boredom has gone to an ultimate low. I didn't go to church today because I really didn't want to get up at 8:30 on a weekday (again) and blah blah blah. So now I'm stuck at home with this stupid self survey that no one really cares about, but people fill out anyway because they're bored. I called Steph and Robin earlier and asked them if they wanted to hang out, but they're going to call me later or something. DAMNIT the sun is actually starting to come out. Fuuuuuck i want to go out I'm SO BORED.

BASICS
(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: yes.
(4) Want to be?: I CHOSE TO BE SINGLE, FYI. fuckers.
(5) Your birth day: june 7, '87
(6) Age you act: sometimes 8, sometimes 20. depends on my mood
(7) Age you wish you were: 21
(8) Your height: 5'3
(9) The color of your eyes: pink.
(10) Happy with it?: uhh, whatever.
(11) The color of your hair: WHITE AND RED. i'm rogue, bitches.
(12) Happy with it?: fuck yes.

(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: i guess I'm ambidextrous. i write with my right hand, but do everything else with my left.
(14) Your living arrangement?: monkeys, aligators, bears, and pandas.
(27) Your family: mama, step-papa #2, bro, sis, 5 parakeets, 1 samurai fish.
(29) What's your j0b?: student / bum / undercover agent
(30) Piercings?: 3 on my left ear, 4 on my right.
(31) Tattoos?: maybe later.
(32) Obsessions?: music, clothes, dancing, singing, theatre.
(35) Do you speak another language?: tagalog and some italian. wish i could speak french after reading Voltaire.
(36) Have a favorite quote?: i don't memorize quotes.
(37) Do you have a webpage?: huh. one--but it's for school.

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: most of the time. unless i'm too lazy and i don't feel like it.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: kuh. yeah right. i get annoyed easily and i hate a lot of people.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: about a million.
(41) Do you hate yourself?: i used to.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: love it. it may be incomprehensable at times, but i like it.
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: kuh. a lot.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: i used to get, "you have great fashion sense." but now I'm too lazy and too broke to have a fashion sense so I just walk around naked all day.
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "the cynical filipino"
(46) What's your biggest fear?: boredom. HAH.
(47) Can you sing: yeah. everyone can sing. the question is--can i sing WELL? :o
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: why would i have to? I'm already the coolest person IN THE WORLD. fuckers.
(49) Are you a loner?: when i feel like being alone and/or when i'm in my no-tolerence moods aka when I'm PMSing so bad I take it out on everyone.
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: not really. huk huk.
(52) Are you a daredevil?: fuck yeah. bitches.
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: not anymore. i'm pretty contempt with myself--at the moment.
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: i'm passive aggressive. yes, there is such a thing. but mostly i'm aggressive.
(55) Have you got a ?: wtf. why can't you just spell out question? lazy dumbass.
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength = conquering dificult tasks. weakness = listening, tolerance for idiocy.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: i want to be physically fit again. haha
(58) There are three wells- love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: creativity.
(59) How do you vent?: i write.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: yes. more than people know.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: i regret not breaking up with my first boyfriend before the bastard broke up with me, i regret my whole depression stage in which i cut myself, i regret not continuing my tae kwon do, i regret getting into TWO hit and run accidents before I even got my PERMIT---i regret a lot of things.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: my life has been better than others', so i shouldn't be complaining.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: keep an open mind.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my beauty marks. they're going to make me famous some day, i just know it.
(65) And least?: thighs. mine in particular.
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: yes. i have good genes and my parents/ancestors were beautiful.
(67) Are you confident?: huk. can't you tell?
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: rogue from x-men.
(69) Do people know how you feel?: one person---->steph
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: most of the time.

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: gross. i would probably die if i smoked.
(72) Do drugs?: just the legal kind.
(73) Read the newspaper?: sometimes.
(74) Pray?: yes.
(75) Go to church?: yes.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometimes, if i feel like freaking them out/yelling at them/having wierd conversations with them. but it doesn't really matter anymore since i never sign on.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: no.
(78) Take walks in the rain?: i like to run in the rain.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: every single MF'in day.
(80) Drive?: huk huk.
(81) Like to drive fast?: huk huk.

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: i love my voice.
(83) Hurt yourself?: yes.
(84) Been out of the country?: several times.
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: huk huk. of course--i'm filipino.
(86) Burped?: wtf. whoever wrote this is a fucking moron.
(87) Been unfaithful?: depends on what you mean by "unfaithful"
(88) Been in love?: eww. yes. sadly. *throws up*
(89) Done drugs?: just the legal kind, fucker.
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: i used to skinny dip all the time. back when i was 4.
(92) Had a surgery?: don't think so.
(93) Ran away from home?: i run away from my house with my jogging pants and shoes all the time. i always come back within an hour, though. huk huk.
(94) Played strip poker?: yeah..with my cousins. when i was 9. (gross? yeah, i thought so.)
(95) Gotten beaten up?: no. I beat people up, not vice versa. bitches.
(97) Been picked on?: yes.
(98) Been on stage?: yes. of course.
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: uhh. no.
(100) Slept outdoors?: i think. can't remember.
(101) Thought about suicide?: sadly, yes.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: all the time.
(103) If yes, what is your record?: roughly 2-3 days without sleep.
(104) Gone one day without food?: yes. i used to do that all the time when i was 14--shh, don't tell anyone.
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: the only person i did that with was anthony...*sigh* i feel really bad for what i did. oh well.
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: hah. yeah.
(107) Slept all day?: ohhhh yes.
(108) Killed someone?: in my dreams.
(109) Made out with a stranger?: i might have... can't remember.
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: hah. no.
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: oh yes.
(112) Kissed the same sex?: no. i hate girls.
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: "ditto" girls are stupid.
(114) Been betrayed?: too many times.
(115) Had a dream that came true?: huh. can't remember.
(116) Broken the law?: OHHHH YESS. huk huk huk.
(117) Met a famous person?: i have several famous relatives. one's an ambassador, and i have a whole section of cousins who were actors/actresses in the philippines.
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: i've killed insects.
(146) Stolen anything?: probably.
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yeah, back in the philippines. they taped me petting a dolphin when i was about 4.
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: hehe. yes.
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: yap.
(150) Considered religious vocation?: huh?
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: no.
(152) Bungee jumped?: wish i had.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yap.

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: guess, steve madden, volatile
(155) Brand of clothing?: whatever. anything i like.
(156) Cologne/perfume?: 'Dune' by Christian Dior.
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: i wear whatever is clean.
(159) Wear hats?: beanies.
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: all the fucking time. i'm superficial, i know.
(161) Wear make-up?: when i'm not being lazy.
(162) Favorite place to shop?: wet seal, random shops at the great mall, wherever. i don't have a favorite store.
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: my fuzzy white scarf.
(164) Are you trendy?: people who are trendy don't say they're trendy. they just are.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: it'd be easier than spending 30 minutes a day trying to figure out what to wear. i actually don't care either way.

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: duh. it'd be sad if Earth was the only planet with living beings.
(167) Miracles?: i guess.
(168) Astrology?: sometimes. when i feel like being gullible.
(169) Magic?: depends on what kind.
(170) God?: yes.
(171) Satan?: yes.
(172) Santa?: never have.
(173) Ghosts?: i believe in spirits.
(174) Luck?: yes.
(175) Love at first sight?: ehh.... that's kind of iffy.
(176) Yin and Yang?: wtf?
(177) Witches?: i am a witch.
(178) Easter bunny?: sure?
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA.
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: i believe there's a leprachaun at the end of a rainbow, but not gold. leprachauns are cooler.
(181) Do you wish on stars?: i love to.

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no. wtf.
(183) Do you remember your first love?: i threw those memories away, thank you very much.
(184) Still love him/her?: PSH.
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: depends on the circumstances.
(186) What do you find romantic?: sentimentality.
(187) Turn-on?: cleanliness, good looks and style (yes, I admit to being superficial), intelligence, honesty, someone who likes to make fun of people.
(188) Turn-off?: ugliness, fakeness, idiocy, lack of intelligence, man boobs.
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: at first.
(200) blank: face?
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before datiing them or going "blind"?: doesn't really matter.
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: all the fucking time, yo. i actually wish i have the guts to ask a guy out.
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: now why would i do that? that's ridiculous.
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: i guess. i wouldn't have had boyfriends in the past if the opposite sex thought i was ugly looking. i mean, my personality isn't really the "nicest" that's out there. huk huk.
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: their simplicity. girls are too complicated. i'm complicated enough to have to worry about anyone else's probalems.
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they're usually stupid and can't get hints.
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: a big basket with stuffed animals and chocolate for valentine's day.
(208) Are you in love?: with myself, yes. (just kidding--or am i?) huk.
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: fuck you. not everyone has a significant other. bitch.
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: eye contact. MF'er.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: i don't get it.
(212) You wanted to kill?: basically everyone from the Oregon Shakespeare festival trip.
(213) That you laughed at?: i laugh at too many people to remember the last person i laughed at.
(214) That laughed at you?: robin.
(215) That turned you on?: HOT TAE KWON DO GUY THAT WORKS AT COLDSTONE HOLY SHIT I WANT TO HUMP HIM.
(216) You went shopping with?: my mom. i think?
(217) That broke your heart?: daniel. fuck that bitch.
(218) To disappoint you?: daniel. fuck that bitch.
(219) To ask you out?: this guy named brian. i forgot what he looked like, though.
(220) To make you cry?: don't remember.
(221) To brighten up your day?: my friends.
(222) That you thought about?: daniel. fuck that bitch.
no 233 eh? OH WELL.
(224) You talked to on the phone?: robin.
(225) You talked to through IM?: i think ryan?
(226) You saw?: mi mama.
(227) You lost?: wtf? no one?
(229) You thought was completely insane?: duh. myself.
(230) You wanted to be?: me.
(231) You told off?: huh. can't really remember.
(232) You trusted?: steph.
(233) You turned down?: brian. i just met him at the boardwalk.. why the fuck would i go out with him? wtf.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: last night @ church.
(235) Laughed?: last night @ church.
(236) Cried?: i almost cried last night @ church.
(237) Bought something?: last friday.
(238) Danced?: yesterday.
(239) Were sarcastic?: few minutes ago. i guess.
(240) hugged someone: last night @ church.
(241) Talked to an ex?: HAH. I never talk to exes.
(242) Watched your fave movie?: i watched my favorite DVDs--SEX IN THE CITY, BITCHES.
(243) Had a nightmare?: don't remember.
(245) Talked on the phone?: few minutes ago.
(246) Listened to the radio?: in the car.
(247) Watched TV?: watching it right now.
(248) Went out?: last night.
(249) Helped someone?: last week.
(250) Were mean?: i'm always mean.
(251) Sang?: few minutes ago.
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: Friday. watched The Grudge and A Shark's Tale.
(253) Said "I love you"?: to a guy--YEARS AGO. to my mom--2 hours ago before she left for Reno.
(254) Missed someone?: i miss people all the time.


Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: i have a bunch of gay friends, but just one lesbian friend.
Who is your best friend?: i don't really have one. if i had to choose, i would prolly say steph and robin.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: "don't be such a bitch"--my entire family.
Who's your longest known friend?: robin. she and i are old school, yo! 10 fuckin' years.
Newest?: can't remember who's the newest. but i naturally hate making new friends. too much work.
Shyest?: christine. definitely.
Friends you miss being close to the most?: anthony, grace, isaac, robin (we need to hang out more), my chrissy-poo who moved in arizona, lorraine....
Last person you talked to online?: wasn't this question asked earlier?
Who do you talk to most online?: i never talk online anymore. aim sucks.
Who are you on the phone with most?: I HATE TALKING ON THE PHONE UNLESS IT'S NECCESSARY. so basically, i only like to talk in person. only to people i like and don't despise.
Who do you trust most?: steph and robin.
Who listens to your problems?: steph and lorraine. sometimes ashley.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yeah, but none of my friends in sc.
Who's your second family?: church peoples.
Do you always feel understood?: only when i open up to the people i trust. but that hardly happens.
Do you trust others easily?: huh. not really.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: mi mama.
Do your friends know you?: some.
Friend that lives farthest away: friends in the philippines.
Do you consider love a mistake?: fucker. you asked that question already.



wow. that took me an hour to do. that's the only thing i like about these surveys: it's fucking great for boredom.